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Manifesting My Dream Home, part 2

June 2, 2017

Here is the link for part 1: Manifesting My Dream Home, part 1

On May 27th 2016, we headed to a relative’s house to live for a week. We had all of our stuff in storage, 3 units plus a trailer and the boat. Then we journeyed up to Connecticut to live with my parents for the next month until the closing date on June 27th.  Around June 19th, in Connecticut, I started to get some emails from the realtor that made me question his health and well-being. There was a slight change in his personality. I even called him up to make sure that we were on the same page, yet everything seemed fine. But there was an urgency in his emails and texts to receive the money on time. He kept wanting to make sure the money was available. Then he requested that it be received to the closing attorney prior to the closing date.

Friday June 24th, he was getting me very upset and stressing me out.  I had patient’s appointments scheduled that day. One appointment was actually ‘in person’ at my parent’s house.  That day I also became aware of an energy that I knew was dark. I saw it over my patient’s left shoulder and fright came over me. I prayed that it be gone. Afterwards, I went to the bank to wire the money for the closing, just shy of $94,000 cash. I came back home to take more appointments. For the second time in my life, I was having a severe panic attack-SEVERE!  I got some more crazy texts from the realtor. Something was just off and I couldn’t put my finger on it.  He was requesting me to change the closing date!

I finally called the closing attorney to say there is something seriously wrong with the realtor and what the hell is going on? I put Jeff on the phone with the office because I had to go back to work. He rushes in my office area and tells me it was fraud!   The money had been wired to a criminal in Texas to a Chase Bank account!  I notified my bank immediately and dropped everything to file a fraud claim back at my bank. It had been only a few hours since it was wired which I thought was a good thing. As I was filling out the form, I had a knowing that it would be returned. But you never really know do you?

(We spent the next 45 days living in hell wondering if we were getting our money back. It sat in the Chase bank fraud department until August 5.)

I didn’t know whether it was going to happen or not.  Thankfully it did. In the meantime, over the course of those days, no one believed that I was to get this money back. I was on the phone with anyone you could think of looking for someone to help us and give us  answers. I have to say, all were useless. In fact, it was worse getting tossed around from call to call with no answers, no support and no one gave a damn! All I was told was, this could take up to 45 days and it doesn’t mean that the money will be returned.

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I had to have FAITH. My cousin and my friend Tara, knew intuitively it would be returned but until it actually came back, we were beyond devastated. No one would tell me honestly what the hell was going on. Chase bank was not treating us well. They treated me like a criminal!  My bank treated us poorly as well, with the exception of one person. I had called the FBI, the local police and I had reported it online. I prayed and cried for those 45 days with very little signs of hope. It took weeks before the FBI first contacted me and my bank for that matter, to tell me little.

In the meantime, we are homeless and out of this $! What had happened was the closing attorney’s email was hacked. The criminal hacked into my realtor’s account and pretended to be him using email and texts! This criminal was very convincing as he used a lot of personal information about the realtor and myself that made it believable. He had sent the actual closing documents to me with all my correct information! He just changed the bank routing and account #. The FBI said it was very sophisticated.

The home that I wanted, that I felt the angels told me was my house, was still under contract. We requested a 2 week extension with the closing attorney.  I was hoping the money would be returned in those 2 weeks and we can move on but time was running out. So I did some math and I maxed out all my bank accounts to scrape up this money once again, leaving me with less than $10,000 to repair the house and to live on.  On July 8th, I paid for the house in cash(again) and drove to the house which needed close to $25,000 in repairs. There was termite damage, water damage, animal feces, cockroaches, damaged wood, the walls were caked on with crud, the bathtubs were stained with rust! The whole house needed to be gutted and we have less than $10,000.

I had decided that I wasn’t going to leave my family homeless and penniless because at that point I just had to move on. We could just camp there and slowly repair the house and apply for a home equity loan. We started making some repairs and started putting our credit cards together and coming up with a strategy and then on August 5 at 5:55 pm,  my bank had informed me that my money had returned in full!

I come to find out through this experience that internet/identity crimes occur pretty often. Wiring fraud happens very often and there’s no way of identifying an actual person who did this. The FBI and the police both said, “Be thankful that you got your money back, most people don’t!  Once the money leaves the country, that’s it!” One agent told me that they just aren’t equipped to handle this level of theft. So I feel very blessed as you can imagine. Our house is about 85% repaired now and we’re extremely happy.

I realized from this experience that I have an enemy.  I know for certain now that there are dark forces that want to do me harm. I know this firmly now. I’m not the type to say this or to even do this, but I was close to committing suicide the night that the money got stolen- closest that I’ve ever been. I believe that panic attack was probably ‘the knowing of what was occurring’ that I couldn’t consciously figure it out.

I know for certain from what Joyce Meyer says “new level new devil” because I got challenged living at a higher place, a higher consciousness. The shit is going to hit the fan- as a shedding, as a test, as a challenge, as to keep balance, who the hell knows!? But I know that this was an attack and I’m thankful for all the prayers. Marianne Williamson would say it is a cry for love. Well you send love to the people behind this. Trying to muster up love to that type of evil is not human. You know me-I am always telling people to love everyone 🙂 All I could do was love myself through it and frankly I still am healing from this.

I also realized that money is not who I am. It’s a tool. Although it was extremely devastating to not have that money, I was ready to plan the rest of my life and deal with not having it anymore. Of course, it would’ve sucked and of course it would’ve taken me a long time to heal that trauma.

I had reached out to many different healers at that time and we’ve concluded that it was a past life karmic debt. It manifested in part to what, Morgana Starr, said was a sentinel. Actually, pre-incarnation, I realized I set it up to have that experience. I also feel that it was a combination of personal guilt that I was carrying because I was living my dream. I am sure you can relate. A lot of people carry around guilt, shame and unworthiness. This house was symbolic of a chapter that I was deliberately creating in a way I’ve never created before. It’s the epitome of my dreams coming true.  I guess there was some guilt in receiving all the wonderful things that I knew were ahead. I’ve lived on this earth for 41 years and I finally feel like I have arrived. I suppose I’d have to let go of guilt and unworthiness around that in order to receive, but who knows…..-I do know I am living the dream ❤

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The dream of this house partially involves you too. I could not have gotten to this place without you. My plan is to create a home where I live off the land as much as possible (which keeps expanding). I plan on growing herbs for healthy living and to be made into products for you, like salves, for instance. I am turning this house into a farm slowly but surely. I have already planted many fruit trees and berry bushes. The home will have chickens for eggs. Eventually I will be conducting healing workshops and art classes out of my favorite room in the house, my office space where I play @ Pure NEWtrition and Anastazia’s Designs. We call this house the ReTreat.

Thanks for being a part of this crazy journey called Life.

 

 

Manifesting My Dream Home, part 1

May 27, 2017

As a follow-up to my article on manifesting, “Manifesting: Deliberately Create Your Dreams into Reality”, here is an example of manifesting that has many life lessons in it that will inspire you and stress you out:). This experience had to be written. You will see why. It is appropriate to send this to you today since May 27th marks 1 year, the day we left Florida…..

In January 2016, I had been living in Florida for six long years I was terribly unhappy there, no matter how many times I tried to use the various healing tools and techniques I have available. The fact was I was unhappy in the Florida environment.  I thought it was a mind over matter thing and I just had to tell myself that I am happy. The reality was that the intense heat that I experienced three quarters of the year, was slowly sucking the life out of me! I had to be honest with that. So the dread of experiencing another summer in Florida was just an impossibility to me. (Mind you it was never my desire to live in Florida to begin with)

I put the house on the market by February.  I vowed that this house must sell before the summer- I will not be here another summer. I was in fright and dread of experiencing another summer-it was that terrifying to me. I had just recently read a book called Theta Healing. I decided to apply everything that I know about manifesting into my dream home and to get out of Florida as soon as humanly possible, using Theta Healing.

I decided to channel this new house. What that means is I tuned into my future home in my mind and I started writing down what I saw in my head. I wrote a whole page of descriptions of what I saw. For example, I specifically saw a Coldwell Banker sign out front. The next thing that I did was list everything that I wanted in my new home- the specifics of how many bedrooms, the square footage etc.  I used Theta Healing and I prayed and I prayed and I prayed.

My realtor had the house on the market and we weren’t getting any interest in the house. So she started to look in the neighborhood statistics for the average time a house is on the market. The average was 1 year! So she said be prepared to be here another year and another summer! I refused to accept this. By April we had an interested buyer and by May 27 we were completely packed up and on the road for Memorial Day weekend!!

That is the short version. I wish it was that simple. Let me fill you in on more details leading up to this miracle and some details after this miracle. You’ll see……

I had a session with Carol Joyce, an angel channeler, because I wanted to make sure this was the right move. She told me there would be “signs” that I was on the right path. But I didn’t think she meant literally too!! Wilmington, NC was so random and wild to pick up and leave to a place where we knew no one. I had prayed that Florida would send us out and pay us to leave!

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Sign #1 Interestingly and miraculously the buyer’s name had ‘christ’ in the first name and last!! Lol

Sign #2: Then the inspectors gave us approval for everything that we expected were going to be problems in negotiations with the buyers! We had many red flags regarding the structure and condition of the home that were brushed over.

Sign #3: It took only three months and the closing ended up being on May 27th!

Sign #4: We doubled our money in a little over 3 years.

We didn’t have a new house to settle in to by the closing date. We just knew the area we liked based on a few brief visits. I mean brief-two nights in June 2015 and 1 afternoon over Thanksgiving weekend in Wilmington.

Sign #5: Driving up 95N to get to Wilmington, you have to cross over to route 74/76. I kept seeing signs for both. 1974 is the year Jeff was born and 1976 is mine.

Why did I pick this area in the first place, you ask? It met my needs and came recommended from friends and family. I had my criteria: The house needed to be near the beach, near an airport, secluded and near Trader Joe’s. Those were the general specs.

So a little sidebar- knowing that I had to leave Florida, that this was inevitable because it was affecting my health and my passion for living, I was shopping on Trulia and Zillow and receiving picks from our realtor, daily since January.  I was obsessed over house shopping.  I had what I wanted on paper, how many bedrooms, the type of neighborhood etc. but nothing was matching up to these requirements.  Jeff found a house that I could consider. It was a foreclosure and I prayed about it and I asked God for a sign. Jeff liked the house. I thought it could work.  I prayed and I prayed and prayed. I wasn’t getting too much of a clear answer and I was getting extremely frustrated. I just want God to spell it out: “Is this the house or not?” Suddenly when I asked, someone or something tugged on my left ear firmly enough for me to know without a shadow of a doubt this was the house. I suppose this was an angel or a guide.  I have no idea but there was no one else in the room. I immediately called the realtor and said I will purchase this house without even seeing it.  I know it needs a lot of work. I don’t care. I just want to hold the house. My realtor called the listing agent for the house that I wanted and left a few voice mails. The person never got back to us and the next day the house was off the market 😦

As you can imagine, I was devastated because I was begging God for a sign and begging for some direction and then this happens! So I chalked it up to maybe it really wasn’t an angel or a guide tugging on my ear. Maybe I made the whole thing up and this is not the house.

My realtor had a family emergency the day we had scheduled a trip to house shop in NC! We had 1 day to house shop on May 17th so we got a replacement realtor.   

Sign #6: For that trip, we transported our boat and first set of furniture to a storage unit in an area that just so happened to be 8 minutes from our new house that we hadn’t found yet!

Sign #7: On the way to North Carolina we drove up with our U-haul and boat. The boat trailer axle broke! This happened on the side of the I-95 N. I think it was in South Carolina and strangely there just so happens to be a welder at the exit where we had to pull over-reasonably priced and available! The trailer was fixed and we were back on the road in no time!

The next day we got up early to take our things to storage to unload everything and then house shop that afternoon. For the two of us to unload all of this furniture it would consume the day but thankfully the storage employee made a phone call and in no time we had two helpers to unload the furniture in time to return the U-Haul truck back to its office without penalty. #8

This new realtor was much more knowledgeable to help us find the type of house that we were looking for. The house that I really wanted was off the market, so we looked at some other homes that I was less interested in. There weren’t many at all to choose from. I was disappointed because I had been house shopping on line since January and nothing felt right.

Oddly and miraculously enough, #9, Jeff looks at his phone while we are looking at a house I wasn’t excited about and notices on Trulia, that the house I really wanted was back on the market!! More ironically the house I really wanted was only 15 minutes away from the house that we were looking at and the realtor just so happened to have the key to the house because it was a HUD home and he was familiar with a HUD transaction.

When I arrived at the house that is now our home, it had the Coldwell Banker sign in the front!! #10-the same vision that I had when I jotted down in January. Ironically it had a ‘beware of dog’ sign on the gate just like our old home in Florida had- the same sign!! #11

Aside from the heat, I truly loved the property and loved the home.  We always said if only we could pick up our house exactly the way it is and just move it up north it would be awesome. I really didn’t want to leave the house, just the state. So our new home has many of the features that we loved in Florida. It is actually also on a dirt road and on the same side of the street as the last house, on the same size lot, with the gate with the ‘beware of dog’ sign and with a paved driveway like we had!  We have our peace and tranquility which is number one priority. Even our neighbors are similar!

I immediately put a bid on the house. I bid on a figure via muscle testing, because I really wanted the bid to be accepted. We headed back down to Florida and on the highway of our 10 hour drive, I get an email that our offer was accepted (the same day) sign #12 !! By the time I got to Florida I had to immediately put down a deposit and send in overnight paperwork to secure the purchase with the exception of about two items everything that I wanted in this future home this home had.

I wish I could say it was smooth sailing from here :(…. stay tuned for part 2

Healing the Victim

March 13, 2017

Carolyn Myss, author of “Why People Don’t Heal and How They Can”, states that each of us has a victim archetype within. Illness presents us with the opportunity to come face to face with that victim. In order to transcend it and heal, it’s important not to take the illness personally. We need to truly see it as an opportunity to heal.

 

Myss believes that healing and curing are not the same thing. Curing is the successful controlling or abatement of an illness, that does not necessarily include alleviation of the emotional and psychological stresses that were a part of the illness. The process leading to a cure is generally passive, where the patient gives over authority to the physician and/or prescribed treatment. Healing is an active and internal process that includes investigating ones attitudes, memories, beliefs, and relationships to power. The desire is to release all negative patterns that prevent one’s full emotional and spiritual recovery.

 

In order to do this, we need to notice the feelings that are coming up. Whether it is an illness, a relationship drama or job crisis, it is important to face the challenge, not separate yourself from it. We need to face the fears and victimized feelings that are surfacing. 


Next, we must walk directly into these feelings. The illness is not the issue. The issue is the loss of power that the illness generates. We must find the things that make us feel powerful and bring more power into our life. We must connect to the spirit and strengthen our faith. We must use this power to confront our inner victim.


When I took the Avatar course, I became aware that I created all my problems! It was my doing! Through the course, you gain a higher awareness and broader perspective. You begin to recognize that you created the problem. You created it for your own purpose of spiritual awareness, spiritual growth and development. It is not separate from you. It is not God punishing you. You can’t wonder “Why does this happen to me?” If you meditate deep enough you will gain that perspective and it’s very liberating. You will find that you set up this situation for your growth, your education – and it’s perfect. 


Since we created it for ourself, we must find the power in the circumstance. Finding and facing the fears that it brings up within us allows it to leave our body once and for all, and true healing can begin. 

Relationships-part 1

March 9, 2014

In the end, one must come to terms with the fact that the only relationship is with oneself. All other relationships are extensions of, or projections of the relationship with the self. That is it. This realization then means that in order to shift the relationship that is undesired, one must look in the mirror. At first this seems to imply guilt or shame for causing the distress but upon maturity and desiring power more than victimhood, one fully accepts that they created the whole thing! This may first be humiliating but afterwards, liberating. Freedom and power are synonymous. I love them both. I had to accept that the things I disliked about my life was my doing. Then, I could change it! Otherwise, one stays in resistance, and that is just ignorant. If one becomes aware of their role in the experience they dislike and still choose to stay in it-that is called stupid!

The Merry-Go-Round of Modern Medicine: Why I pray for an Awakening

November 30, 2016

There is so much I could say on this topic! It makes me crazy because today’s doctors aren’t using anything in their toolbox that actually works. I am sure that may come as a surprise, but let me explain.

The bodies we live in are made up of organic materials. We each have a soul and a spirit, which are intrinsically part of our physical body. To be healthy, our bodies require living elements to sustain themselves. They need food from the earth – fruits, vegetables, seeds-virtually anything that grows in nature. They require water to drink and air to breathe. The soul and the spirit thrive on love, joy, happiness and peace. These are the things that normal, healthy beings require – this is part of our blueprint.

So, logically, if a doctor is hired to assess a person’s health, they must then review the patient’s blueprint. The doctor must find out where the patient is deviating from the basic requirements listed above. Right? Wrong. What they actually do has nothing to do with restoring health. They do not recommend organic nutrition. They do not recommend clean, filtered water. They do not recommend breathing clean air. They do not recommend exercise as a primary protocol to restoration. They do not assist the patient with returning their blueprint. Instead, today’s doctors recommend drugs – man-made chemical concoctions that have never been found to be naturally occurring in a healthy body – and surgery – the removal of a dysfunctional body part.

There is no logic in this. To be honest, it’s quite asinine. I find it appalling that this is how medicine in our country operates. Well, they call it medicine. I call it crap.

In my practice, I find that when you start dissecting a person’s lifestyle it becomes very obvious why they are in their current state of health. It’s something that they created, not something from outside of them. It’s something they did – intentionally or not – to themselves. Don’t get me wrong – medication and surgery have their benefits in an emergency – a situation that cannot wait for the body to heal itself, but that’s it. If there isn’t a long-term plan using the blueprint above, it will not help the patient.

In my practice I often work with people that have first sought help from traditional medical professionals. Rarely do these experts find any significant problems and if they do, they certainly don’t have a good solution. The doctor will often give an antibiotic or a steroid. If those don’t work, they’ll recommend surgery and just cut it out. Or they may send you from specialist to specialist and on the merry-go-round of modern medicine we go! That’s it!  Sadly, this is often what today’s medical professionals offer you. I WISH I WAS KIDDING!

It has taken me over 10 years to come to terms with my frustration with “the system”. I am finally channeling this frustration into something useful for others. I have a gift of intuition that allows me to see the real issues behind a symptom’s manifestation. It’s my job and purpose to help people awaken and realize our power aka divinity. The truth is within each and every one of us. It is time to realize that we are one with nature and we are one with God. We need to start opening our eyes, opening our hearts and opening our minds.

Today’s medical system has been created out of pride, greed, fear and ignorance.  If you are not in an emergency situation, I strongly suggest that you save your money and save your energy. Please consider consulting a medical professional who treats you as the trinity that you are.

Are you ready for the truth? Please call or email me to learn how to return to your original blueprint.

Rev. Rebecca Karchere, MS, Medical Intuitive
Pure NEWtrition

“Health is Inner Peace”
www.purenewtrition.com

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Vitamin D in the media

March 30, 2015

Every so often a new nutrient or health craze infiltrates the media. The media thrives on drama and ratings, not facts.  If you are getting your information from the media, I feel sorry for you.  Vitamin D is getting some great attention these days. I hear a lot from my patients, “My doctor thinks I should be on a vitamin D supplement”. Thank you media for keeping me in business by the way (in all my sarcasm)

All of a sudden, this nutrient that has always existed is getting attention-WHY? Please tell me, who came out with a new patent? Who is going to get paid from this hype? What was the business plan for this drama this time?

Next it will be vitamin A. Why? Because! There is vitamin A, B, C, D, E, F, K for starters. Why pick vitamin D now? What about minerals? These nutrients existed before us and certainly existed before we discovered it! Conclusion: They are ALL important. Doctors should be screening for all of them!

Remember the skin cancer hype? Put on your sunblock or you will develop skin cancer. Well guess what else you block?…Vitamin D!! You cannot make vitamin D when you wear sun block. Confusion, confusion. “They” told us to wear sun block to protect me from cancer, but now I have a vitamin D deficiency! Oh the dilemma…

How about all the cholesterol uproar? Your levels should be 220 mg/dL. No wait!!- It is 200mg/dL. Nope, we goofed up again, it is now 180 mg/dL!! And you trust these people???????? I don’t suppose the insurance companies and the FDA are in cahoots huh? Nah-can’t be. They are for the people. So now that most everyone who gets their blood work checked, now falls into the high cholesterol catagory, we are going to give you Lipitor!! Another brilliant idea. Thank you medical doctor for saving me from a fictitious heart disease risk factor. Thank you for lowering my CoQ10 levels to dangerous levels that put me at risk for a heart attack. Oh, but that is why you put me on Lipitor to protect me from heart disease!! I am very confused now. Who do you work for again?

So now my cholesterol levels are lowered artificially by shutting down my liver. And now I have low vitamin D levels in my blood. Thank you concerned medical doctor. How many years of nutrition classes have you taken? Oh- you only took 1 class!

Then why are you telling me about my vitamin D levels in the first place!? Shouldn’t I ask a nutritionist who knows more than you? Would you call a plumber to do a electrician’s job?

Conclusion: “They” created the no-fat craze which made the skin cancer, diabetes, and heart disease rates go up making everyone deficient in vitamin D! So take your vitamin D supplement for the love of God-until the next drama:) No! Seriously:  EAT FAT and SMILE @ FEAR-that is Wisdom:)

Thank you for letting me rant and vent ❤

Where I have been, and why I am still here

July 17, 2014

Many people whom I have helped over the years have enormous appreciation for me. I appreciate that :). Please don’t make me greater than yourself! When you do, you make me a god or icon. The god in you won’t stand it for long. We are all one in God-no favorites, no hierarchy.

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It may seem as a shock to some of you, but I am working from my home office.  I work over the phone or video chat. If you have had the opportunity to work with me in CT prior to 2010, you remember that muscle testing was essential to my practice in order to discern your state of health. The muscle testing was the key to the door to solve the ‘cause’ of your condition. It always gave my access to information that was so specific to your own healing. Well, I still do muscle testing! I know that may sound ridiculous because during a session, you aren’t even in the same state as me, never mind room!  I am able to muscle test using my index finger and middle finger to connect to the same acupuncture points, chakras, meridians etc. This may still be stretch of faith for some people, I understand.

If you have never had a phone session with me, I can assure you, the results are perfect as before. It was very empowering for me to learn that I could assess you and heal you long distance. It became essential when I decided to move to Florida. I believe it has helped people heal on a deeper level because there is more privacy for the patient.  A lot of people call me for their appointments from their car, although it is not optimal. People can call anywhere they want and it adds comfort. For me, it is better because, I can discern information much better because an intuitive reading requires as little outside stimuli as possible. Most of the time the shades are closed and the lights are dimmed in my home office. The patients that I have seen here in Florida know this. I have helped some Floridians who come to my home office.

 

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What I want to tell you is that I could have continued living the life that I had originally created in Connecticut and it would have been ok. The problem was that I wasn’t totally fulfilled and it was slowly killing me. I am sure I seemed happy to you and I am sure I would have convinced you of it too. I had settled.  I believe that too many people stay in marriages that need to be severed. Too many people are unhappy and stressed yet settle. It feels like the American way honestly. It is the culture we live in. It is difficult to press through the big questions of life and then additionally to act on them! It takes courage. It takes balls to have a vision and follow it through. I believe, that it is rare. It is rare because we accept mediocrity. Pleasure, passion, and bliss are not commonly exemplified or experienced.-just sayin’.

Throughout my professional life I have had a difficult time being true to my heart. I have been raised by 2 parents whom are workaholics. It has been a gift to witness this to remind me of what I don’t want. I had the gift of my grandmother’s sudden death to teach me to live my life NOW!  But that lesson is slow in its integration.  I became sad, stressed and depressed to an all-time low by my early 30’s.  Friends of mine in the energy medicine field could see it. I was in denial.  I have always been an artist. Somehow, school, life responsibilities, and my relationships took priority and I buried that part of myself and rationalized it out of my awareness. My craft supplies were literally stored up in my house in CT in the basement collecting mold. My left brain continued to rationalize that it is not important. I made small changes to accommodate it and care for it. It didn’t help enough and I found myself crying to one of my best friends in 2008, who knew something was wrong and took it upon himself to move in with me. He built me a craft station with cabinets and counter top upstairs. Relief! It helped tremendously.

That same summer I had gotten a reading by an amazing healer, Lisa Denton. She saw that I had a lot of indigo in my aura (signifies creative, intuitive) and I was hardly utilizing it. She told me that if I didn’t change, I would develop a disease. (mind you, all the while, YOU are getting healed by me with great success and appreciation for me at my office on Tunxis Hill Rd in Fairfield, CT, but I am dying! What hypocrisy!) She told me that I was going to go through a butterfly experience similar to Michael Jackson who had just passed, but I would still be here. I felt that I couldn’t keep helping the world and neglecting myself for long yet I took the message with a grain of salt. I continued to live what I now know was a dull life. Shortly after that session with Lisa, I got a fortune cookie that said ‘you are heading to the land of sunshine :).  Little did I know, God intervened and sent me my high school boyfriend. I left my marriage and relationship of 15 years, my family, friends, and headed to the sunshine state over the following year.  Thank God I had been already mastering intuitive healing, long distance healing via phone so that I could continue to help you and myself.

I got to Florida and within 7 months, I was pregnant with Justin. I spent the next few years in transition, processing all these changes in a small period of time in a 600 square foot apartment with an infant, Jeff and an eighty pound dog whom I never wanted and still don’t. Only to move again into my home that I have now which I am tremendously grateful for. There is and was a lot of newness-becoming a mother, new relationship with myself, with Jeff, new state, moving 2x, etc. plus grieving the old I just left.

Notice I didn’t mention any ART! Because, once again I had put it aside on the back burner of my life. I was moody, lonely and blamed it on my new life and that I just needed to make new friends and connections. (And all the while, you are still receiving my help and healing while I am suffering, lol) I thought ‘How long does it take to grieve my old life before I can move on? Here I was not happy again! Had I made a mistake? The solution to my problem was that I was last on my list and I needed to be first again. I had made a vow 6 years ago to allow myself to be first and I had forgotten. I even got my first tattoo of a butterfly to signify the shift in 2010. I vowed at the moment I made the decision to divorce, I would put myself first. I have created primaries (affirmations) to put myself first. No more would I live for others! This made the pain and suffering greater as it was a reminder that I was off course.

I have the privilege of being friends with an amazing healer, Dr. Denise Nadler, whom I called out of shear desperation and hitting rock bottom only a few months ago. Her style is similar to mine as she gets to the root and it is likely that you will find that it is not what you thought the problem was. I had been believing that my problem was one thing but I was looking in the wrong direction. She nailed it! She made me realize that I was lonely for me, and that was liberating and empowering. I was needing to connect to myself, my bliss through art.  It was very clear that I was looking outside to heal my loneliness problem when the solution was an inside job. Art is being intimate with me. It is food for my soul. I was Starving.

In 2011, sitting in that tiny apartment, I was in labor about to give birth to my son, Justin. I created my second business. I made the logo on Vistaprint with business cards, a shirt, magnets and I made a Facebook page etc. It is called Anastazia’s Designs.   Check it out : Anastazia’s Designs.  I birthed my son the next day and put the art business on hold until now. So now, after speaking with Denise, I have made it a priority again. Art helps me help you! So now you know what I am doing on Tuesdays and Thursdays…..

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I hope I have inspired you to live from your heart’s inspiration. We are here to live life to the fullest.

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